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Upset!

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When I tink back tat day when I asked him to take a look at e blog I set up for us on our future n when tat day we actually quarrel, I feel so sad.. Til nw, I nv brought up anytin abt tis blog..
So sad.. I was always lookin forward to our future bt nv reali noe tat e quarrels al e while brought him fear.. I'm so upset abt it even until nw.. Anyway.. wat can I do? He used to brin up abt tis n tat n I m always feel warmth when we talk abt it.. Bt as days passed, I can reali confirm tat tis topic will nt b brought up eva again.. Even when I always tell him firmly tat I wont brin it up again, bt I m stil wonderin if we will b together for long or foreva anot... Shd I reali giv up e thots n start to look for someone else????? Next wk, he wil b havin evenin classes.. N we wil onli get to mit durin wkends.... I wonder wat shd I do then.. Guess I mus reali brace myself up.. Do e things tat I shd do.. I wan my confidence back! I dun wish to b a useless woman when one day he dump mi! I m…

+SLeepy+

Wat a wkend! Spend e whole day at home.. Sleepin n sleepin cos I m so sad. Cant do anytin.. Nv eat much too... Keep lyin on bed.. Til nite time, watch F1 and realise hw painful my head is.. Thanks to all e nappin ba.. Wahahaha.. Had panadol n went bk to slp after the F1 race.. Gd rite? Stil v sad.. bt y shd I when he is nt? I m brace myself up.. Shall b hapi cos he oso no care at al... I hv been so long nv talk to my frens abt my BGR prblm... Jus told them we r as usual.. Nv quarrel liaao.. Cant b bother to complain... Cos I prefer keepin it to myself unless ppl brought up theirs.. Den tat nite we quarrel, he said mi complainin to my fren cos I was smsin.. Bt I was jus smsin my fren whether to mit up e next day or nt... Den another time oso like tat say mi.. Kaoz.. I nv complain bt he said I complain.. Fine la.. A lot of things I wont do liao.. I wont as usual complain to my frens abt our prblm, I wont cry for any single thing especially in regards to us.. I wont want him to call…

Is jus e beginning..

Felt weird when I'm at hm on a Sun. Bt to him is ok I tink.. Gt mi ard or nt makes no difference. Cos he can do anytin stil witout mi.. Forget it! I shall nt tink so much.. Let him b.. Since is his SOP for coolin dw period after a quarrel n somemore say hw long oso can, den shall take effect frm tat day till anytime ba.. A wk, a mth or foreva... Anyway, tink even up to tis min, I stil feel terrible.. Cos keep tinkin tat wat I did for him n tis r/s is stil nt enuff to cover wateva he did for mi n our r/s... Sian.. Dun reali look forward to anytin in tis r/s anymore.. I dun c tat we wil b together foreva.. I tink can reali put a stop to wateva I wan n hope to do for tis r/s. I dun wish tat e effort is gone to waste.. Mayb I shd tink more for myself rather than our r/s... At least I hv sometin to look forward to in my life bt as days passed, e future of us seems far n unreachable... Mayb is nt meant for mi... Or mayb I pin too much hopes on it... Lets c hw it goes tis few days…

Poly gathering 26 Sep 2009

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*-* I mus b hapi even when things dun go rite.. Jus hv to face everythin n live on. *-*

All of us... SP gals...

This is wat we had for Hi Tea...

=Awful Feelin+

We quarrel again after wks of hapi n peace.. He is stil e same old attitude when we quarrel. Anyway, both of us dunwan to giv in.. Even though he apologise, bt is a late apology cos he has already said sometin which brings bk e kind of feelin I used to hv... It seems like e effort I hv put in is jus nt enuff.. To him, is onli wks tat we nv quarrel n nt mths or years.. It makes mi so sad.. Cos at least I put in my effort to change as I hv always be e one who stir up quarrels.. Nt tat he nv put in effort, bt my effort is to b more cos of al e quarrels tis while.. Bt he jus dun understand... He likes sayin those words which hurts.. Ya.. both of us r hurtin each other.. I duno hw is e feel nw bt I m feelin miserable.. B4 we hang up, I asked him hw long he wants e coolin dw period.. Tats his way after a quarrel. He asked bk hw long I wan to give him... N he said hw long I wan he also can.. Thanks.. I thot I can end e conversation bt wat he said is like he reali like n can b by himself wi…

My 2010 Plans

Abit early bt beta ma... V determined to hv al tis plans to be executed. Get my Aerobics Instructor licence Get my driving licence Our savings to hit $10k My private savings to hit certain amt (E amt is in my mind) Although those plans hv to b executed, I hv to sacrifice my holidays.. Told him tat for 2010, we can travel 2 times only.. One is already used and is for Phuket in Feb. Haiz.. Guess wat? Valentine's Day and our Anniversary falls on e CNY holiday.. N we r travellin to Phuket durin tis period.. No chance of celebrating both in one go... So sad... Bt he is payin for the trip n I fork out for e expenses.. Wahahah... Shiok bt stil sad cos of tat.. So hw to fully utilise e 2nd n last trip of e year??? I m tinkin whether to choose Taiwan or Beijing/Shanghai. If only my budget is enuff, I wish I can go for both.. Bt I hv already forecast my travelling budget n is v minimal.. So sad.. Anyway, mus try my best to utilise within my budget n he wont hv to spend alot again from 2010 …

What I have learnt so far in 2009

I have learnt to eat: Sambal kang kong Dragonfruit Green Apple Otah That is some achievements I hv.. I know is kind of lame bt once I learnt to eat al e above, my life is beta cos I m more into food... Hahaha.....

BFF - Best Friend Forever

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I wan this!

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